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I was eight years old. I was worried about my mother. My mother had a hard life growing up and wanted to make up for it with her own family. I was an only child and my mother desperately wanted another child to carry the family name. She was thirty-four at the time and suffered from some medical problems, but that did not stop her from wanting her second child. Finally, her dream came true. She became pregnant at age thirty-four. She was a nervous person to begin with and having a child in her mid-thirties made her even more concerned for her child''s health. My mom was beginning to think something bad might happen to the baby, so she went to get amniocentesis.
My father begged her not to get it done, but against his word, she did anyway. An amniocentesis is a common prenatal test in which a small sample of the amniotic fluid surrounding the fetus is removed and examined to see if the baby has any birth defects.
The doctor who performed the procedure did it incorrectly. The doctor withdrew the wrong amount of fluid, so instead of waiting a couple of days to withdraw the proper amount of fluid, he withdrew more the same day. In result, the baby did not have enough fluid to survive.
My mother did not think anything of it when she left the office. She did not think withdrawing double the amount of fluid would do anything to the baby. My mother did not bother to say anything that day to us.
The next morning while sleeping, I was awakened by something glowing above my bed in my bedroom. I sat straight up in bed. What was it? As I watched, the glow became larger and more radiant. I saw something in the center. Why, it was a figure of a man. The man was dressed in a robe. He looked like he was in his twenties or thirties and he had a beard. I was not scared at all.
The man moved closer to me, somehow bringing the light with him. Still shinning straight above me, he sat down on the side of my bed and said something to me. Something I did not want to hear.

"Stacey"

How do you know my name?"

He did not say.

"Listen to me," the beautiful man said.

His voice was like gold, all shimmers and lovely. He had such peace in his voice.

"Stacey, you have been very worried about your Mommy, but you don''t need to be afraid about your mother and baby''s she is carrying. It is for the best.

I was confused. I looked directly into his big brown eyes and asked, "What is for the best?"

"What I am about to tell you, may make you mad. You are not going to understand now, but later in life the pieces will unfold and you will understand why this happened."

"Understand "what?" Why what happened," I asked.

The baby your mother is carrying is dead my child!

I started yelling at him screaming, "No, No".

"The baby is in a better world, a place where he needs to be. He is in the heavens, where there is no evil and only love exists. Now you need to be there for your mother. "I am watching over your brother and I’ll make sure he fine, he''ll walk the world with me. It is your job to help your mother. She needs your strength and love, because your mother’s strength will diminish through this tragic event. "All right?"

Yes!" I replied. The bright figure then faded away.

My mother was leaving to go to the doctor that day. I did not say anything to her about what the angels had told me. I did not want to upset her. I felt butterflies in my stomach. I knew this would be a tragic day for all. I looked out the window as she got into the car, tears rolled down my eyes as I wept them off my face. I remember what the angel said, "You must be your mother''s strength."

That day my mother came home distraught and in tears. The doctors told she lost the baby and that she had to be hospitalized, so they could remove the baby from her body. She sat down on the couch with her face covered by her hands. I knew then that the doctor had told her. I did not ask her any questions because I did not want to upset her anymore than she already was.

The angel was right. I realized that the angel was preparing me, so I could be the angel''s helper on earth. I walked over to my mother. She looked at me and was about to tell me what I already knew. She was about to tell me, but I covered her mouth. Mother I know the angel from the heavens came and told me about your misfortune. I am sorry. I am here to give you my strength. The angel told me that you need my strength and my eternal love. I am your daughter, your pain is my pain and my strength is now yours. We will get through this together. For all things, happen for a reason. The angel said, we may not understand at first, but as times goes on we will understand. She looked stunned for a moment, a bit confused, but then she grabbed me and gave me a tight hug. We wept together and a special bond that developed between us at that moment, one that that will never diminish.

That moment was a special one. I felt such a spiritual feeling in the room when I hugged my mom. I felt the same peaceful aura in the room that I felt in my bedroom when the angel came to visit. I looked around but saw no one.

I can still hear myself offering my help to the one person in the world who meant the most to me, my mom. God had sent a messenger "the man" to prepare me for my mother''s loss and to teach me how not to be anger or blame anyone for what has happened, but to focus on the person who needed my help the most, "my mother." The man-the messenger from the heavens showed me how to move my mother through the grieving process toward healing.

The next day my father drove my mother to the hospital. She was there for two days. The first day they removed the baby that now lived in the heavens above. They kept her over night to make sure there were no complications.

When she came home, I was there to greet her. She held back the tears and it was a struggle just to smile at me. She went to room and my father followed. When he closed the door, I walked by to listen what they were saying.

"Why did I get that test done?" my mother yelled in grief. I could have had my second child. The son I always wanted. I will never get to hold him or feel his soft baby skin. I will never see him laugh. I will never see him smile.

"My sweet Tina" my father said, one day we will meet our son when we are in the heavens. The baby we would have had is resting in peace with a halo over its head. Do not blame yourself. You did what you thought was right for the welfare of the child. Death is a comma not a period. We have a future ahead of us. Who knows what God has in store? We are still young. We still can have another child. When it is our turn to fly to the heavens, we will meet our child behind the pearly gate. After that, there was a long moment of silence.

Days followed my mother was not the same mom that I knew. She was not the bubbly happy person who would greet me at the bus stop. She was grieving over the loss of the baby. Her body still thought the baby was there. She continued to fill up with breast milk and her breasts became tendered. This did not help her emotional state. She was being reminded each day of what could have been.

She moped around the house looking and feeling depressed. I remembered what the man had said, that one morning, "It is your job to help your mother. She needs your strength and love, because your mother’s strength will diminish through this tragic event."

For some reason I, felt compelled to open my bible. I walked over to my desk and picked up my bible. The bible fell to the floor and opened to the book of psalm. I read the page and one of the passages caught my eye. It was Psalm 91:11. He will give his angels charge of you to guard you in all your ways.

I realized that the man, the angel that was sent to me was preparing me to help my mother journey through the pathway of healing. He was going to guard us and protect us, so my mother would have time to heal.

I walked over and said, "Mommy this has been an unforgettable tragedy for all of us. "Let''s pray mommy", I said. I know that God and the angels are watching over us and they are going to help us. We knelt down, prayed for the baby, and prayed for our family. After we prayed my mother looked at me and told me that she loved me and that she is very sad that she lost the baby, then she looked at me and said, "But you know I don''t need another child because I have you and you fill my life with eternal joy. "I love you, Stacey" "I love you too mom."

From that moment, my mother and I developed a special bond. Our relationship grew stronger and stayed like that, as the years progressed. When she needed a shoulder to lean on or someone just to listen, I was there for her. In addition, she did the same for me. I realized that our parents have the same needs that we do. From toddlers to adulthood we rely on our parents for everything. Whom do our parents go to when they need help or support? Now I know that I am that person. As I live on this earth, I will be their caretaker and when I fly to the heavens above I will do the same.

WRITER: STACEY CHILLEMI

I am married with three children. There is a whole world in front of us. This world has millions of opportunities just waiting for people such as myself to encounter. It does not matter what age you are. You can achieve anything you put your mind too.

MY ACCOMPLISHMENTS:

I graduated from Stockton College in Pomona, New Jersey. I am an H.O.P.E. Mentor, for the Epilepsy Foundation. I have spoken at different events for schools, organizations, political events, I spoke in front of Congress in Washington and anywhere my help is needed to educate people about epilepsy. I was on four talk shows. The interviews focused on the importance of understanding what epilepsy is, how to help someone having a seizure and giving people with epilepsy encouragement and hope for the future.

I have been on radio stations discussing epilepsy and I have appeared in many newspapers all over New Jersey such as, The Leader, Belleville Post and the Star Ledger. In addition, on June 26, 2002, I was honored an award by the Epilepsy Foundation of New Jersey for Outstanding Volunteer Award.

BOOKS WRITTEN BY STACEY CHILLEMI :

Epilepsy You're Not Alone Epilepsy You’re Not Alone is an inspirational self- help book that teaches people with epilepsy how to live a healthy and productive life. The book shares encouraging stories and gives readers a workable program for coping with their disorder enabling readers to overcome their disorder and get on with their lives. http://www.iuniverse.com/bookstore/book_detail.asp?&isbn=0-595-19526-1 Eternal Love: Romantic Poetry Straight from the Heart How can I find a person to love and share the rest of my life? Will true love come to me naturally? How can I build a relationship. The poems in my book answer these questions. People are eager to find true love—love that will not last a short period of time, but for a lifetime. Eternal Love is designed to answer these questions and more. It is divided into two sections that correspond with the way most people “experience” love: explanation of love (research) and the love poems (using poems and love letters that I created). Each part highlights a particular aspect of love, what love is, and how it can be obtained. http://www.publishamerica.com/shopping/shopdisplayproducts.asp?Search=Yes My Mommy Has Epilepsy (Children's Book) "My Mommy Has Epilepsy," helps educate children and help them understand what they can do if a friend or love one is having a seizure. There are so many myths that still roam through our society about epilepsy. gives children and their family truth; medical facts explained in simplistic terminology so there is a clear understanding about epilepsy.

http://www.lulu.com/content/93092 Keep the Faith: To Live and Be Heard from the Heavens Above (poetry book)

A person does not survive by bread alone. Life requires other things, and Faith and Love are amongst them. For many, perhaps for all, they are the only important things we have that keep us going each morning as we awake and each night as the sunsets. “Keep the Faith,” brings inspiration to people’s lives and a direction to follow.

http://www.lulu.com/content/117499 Live, Learn, and Be Happy with Epilepsy

“Live, Learn, and Be Happy with Epilepsy,” will be a 200-page book targeted for individuals who have epilepsy. Unlike other books on epilepsy, it will focus on The History of Epilepsy, Learning How to Cope with Your Epilepsy, What is Epilepsy?, The Brain and Epilepsy, When Your Child Develops Epilepsy, Types of Seizures, Epilepsy Medications and Treatments, How to Boost Your Self-Esteem, Getting on with your Life, Learning How to Love Yourself Again, Say Goodbye to Stress and Hello to Happiness, Our Dreams Are Our Future, Let Your Confidence Be Your Strength, Worried, Lost, Confused?, How Keeping Yourself in Good Health Can Help Your Epilepsy, Glossary for epilepsy, and a Resource Guide to organizations, websites and other helpful resources.

http://www.lulu.com/content/124393 Epilepsy and Pregnancy: What Every Women Should Know

Co-authored by Dr. Blanca Vasques. Through my efforts, I have been able to show other women that it is not impossible to become a mother. I have given women and couples hope and a new look on life. Epilepsy is just a disorder. Your life does not end because you have epilepsy. http://www.demosmedpub.com/getpage.cfm?filename=book179.html&userid=64025494

I have received awards in my achievements and certificates in recognition for outstanding efforts in trying to improve society. I have been an active participant in organizations and activities. I have been a role model to many individuals.

I have written many articles on epilepsy, such as How Exercise Can Help Your Seizures, Coping with Epilepsy, Can Women with Epilepsy Have Babies and Why Children Have Seizures. She has also written self-help articles, such as 10 Steps to Self-confidence, Seven Steps to Loving Yourself, 4 Steps to High Self-esteem and Greatest relief for stress: Take some time each day for yourself. I have appeared three times on News 12 on the talk show New Jersey Women and has had articles written about her efforts to help people with epilepsy. I have contributed time in helping people with epilepsy and making society more aware of the disorder. I have had epilepsy for 27 years.

My website http://www.authorsden.com/staceydchillemi

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Author of "Keep the Faith: To Live and Be Heard from the Heavens Above":

FORWARD A person does not survive by bread alone. Life requires other things, and Faith and Love are amongst them. For many, perhaps for all, they are the only important things we have that keep us going each morning as we awake and each night as the sunsets.

“Keep the Faith,” brings inspiration to people’s lives and a direction to follow. This poetry will show you that there is a reason to follow the words of Christ. Love yourself as Christ loves you. Life is meaningless unless you can love, be happy and bring your happiness to others. As you read this poetry, you will see a completely new meaning of life. In addition, Faith will once again be apart of your life.

To more information or to purchase the book http://www.lulu.com/content/117499